I am currently not drinking coffee. I have, however, tried to steep cold brew for the first time this morning because our Keurig is on it's last leg so we'll see how that goes tomorrow morning!
My heart is filled with so much love right now and my emotions feels so fresh. Last night, I went to Thalia Hall with my cousin Abby to see Dodie Clark on tour with Tessa Violet. At the beginning of the show, Tessa told us that tonight is going to be a time of cleansing ourselves on a physical and emotional level. We needed to jump and yell the words and just release everything inside. She asked everybody who was nervous to raise their hands and tonight we were going to release all anxieties and its exactly what we all did.
Also, this very sweet lady in line cut out rainbow hearts for everybody to hold up with their phone lights during her song Rainbow and it was beautiful:
Dodie's show was an absolute rollercoaster for the hour she played. She played upbeat tunes, like
Would You Be So Kind, and then she would slow down and sit near the piano to play songs like
Sick of Losing Soulmates. Her band is spectacular. They have a very unique sound, like her drummer having a clear plastic folding wall in front of him to mute his sound and quiet the drums a bit, but it's a very beautiful sound. She also has a violinist, a cellist, a guitarist, and a bassist. Then she plays her uke and the keyboard. Aside from alternating the types of songs she plays, she also spent time talking between some songs and it's very honest like her channel. She speaks out about her mental health and she fills the room with love and made everybody feel like they are not alone in their endeavors, which is what she's been doing since she's starting speaking out about her health on her channel. She does it beautifully, it's like she is filled with magic.
She has a song called
When. It's a song I have never heard before, but it's a song that I think summarizes the way I feel about a lot of things and I have never found words for. Hearing it for my first time at Thalia Hall made the experience and the meaning more intimate and that much more special to me.
She went on to sing Secrets for the Mad and this is the first time I have ever bawled at a show before. I've cried to the Front Bottoms before, but hearing this song live gave me chills all over my body. I've listened to it before on Spotify, but hearing it live was an experience I will never have the words for. It's an experience I will keep near my heart every day for the rest of my life.
I don't think there was a dry eye in the house, to be honest. Everybody around me was sniffling and wiping their eyes when the song ended. It is a song that I have listened to a million times, but it didn't have the impact on me that it did in person. I tried to sing around the whole time and my face was frozen and my lips were quivering. I think it's because of the difference when you hear something, or repeat something in your head versus when you say it out loud. She told us that all of our faces looked familiar because she has seen the anxiety, the pain, and the temporary relief before and it's things she knows all too well. Combining that thought with a sea of people singing through tears, it was an emotional release, as well as a bit overwhelming, but it was beautiful.
I love Dodie. There is so much to love about her. She is honest, she is beautiful. She cares about other people as well as herself. She stays true to herself and...I keep coming back to her honesty. Thank you for recognizing mental illness and showing your viewers that it is okay to be going through things. Thank you for showing that mental illness isn't a negative stigma. Thank you for creating beautiful music for all ages to weep and dance and have an emotional release to. Thank you for being you. <3
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